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18 February 2011
21:07

     so tired, heart, minds, eyes..and think if i come back to home its everything gonna be better. but increase worst..my feelings is disorder, my body its not good and dont ask my mind ~,~..its very worst ever ! i wanna scream, i wanna angry, i wanna tell that i very worst today, i wanna cry..but with whom? with whom i can tell about everything that happened today?
     steady? no, i dont have..yesterday i was break, i want break my relationship with **** because i realized that i still love you..
    i come back at home about 18:15 its very tired, hungry, and my feel so so bad. DARAAAAA !!!!  in my home i found a new trouble. and its make me wanna cry ! but with whom i can cry and tell about my bad feelings? si i planned i go to my bad roomand go to sleep. i lie down on the matress. but i cant i remember him, can we back like past time? i see my netbook..its show 21:07 i take my net book and write my feelings now.
    but i realize who i am and who you are.. i just ordinary girl? no, its too kind. i just a bad girl..im selfish, ugly, not tender girl, hury girl, hyper girl, lebay girl? (yes sure! -,-) and you? dont you ask..you are a perfect boy, you bright enough, never show your emotion, cool, patient.
    past time, you often teached me whats the meaning of 'patient'..and now i understand, and try to be a good girl, a tender girl, a patient girl, just for youbut its not maximal..why? because its not myself..once again i just a bad girl..im selfish, ugly, not tender girl, hury girl, hyper girl, lebay girl? (yes sure! -,-)
    o dont know to forget you, about you, about us. sometimes i often daydream we can back like past time. but i realize i cant achieve that, because you not lo*e me again. and let me to keep this feelings. and it was 21:30 time to sleep.

ps: sori kalo bahasa inggrisnya ngaco, nulisnya salah maklum saya org sunda yg lebay dan sok sok-an b.inggris...siapa tau aja ada bule suka sama gw yaa minimal kalo yg lokal muka Vino G Bastian (?)