what? i dont know..

realize you have been away
and really stay away
everynight crying, pain
like there a black hole in my heart, torn
memories, the memories
light from the memories
make me a little smile in tears
your face take me to remember much deeper
and i awake, look arround
and i stranded, i dont know where..
and i lost, i dont know where..
i see black shadow man
i chase and never reached
until i fall, really really fall
and i'm affraid to get up again

my feelin'

  when you decide me, i feel so suck and i think in myself no nothing else. embarrassing, feel like stupid person in the world, made a mistake maybe big mistake until he's angry and dicede me. but i know i realized i never keep his feelin's. stupid i'm. was 9 mounth i part with him. through the day without him its very hard. but i cant do anything. just pray to god, tell my feel, my hopes. im sure god know what i feel, what i think, what i want. and before i tell to god, god already knew in advance what i wanna tell to god. and God has determined what we must pass. 
   it's hard live the day without you. when i want to sleep suddenly i cry remember of you. did u know? everynight! if u dot believe, its ok. thats it heppened to me. my hearts like a nice flower vases and all of a sudden rupture, cry cry and cry im tired, like a black hole in my hearts.
    so, this conclusion in my hearts if you smile i smile if u charmed i charmed. see you every day it has become the biggest boon :)